Happy new year my lovely readers! 😀
I hope you had a great 2017, and even if it was bad, I’m sure you still can find good in it, lessons you learned that helped you grow up. In everything bad that happens, there’s definitely something good to come out of it, even if we don’t see it right away. So stay positive!
Instead of publishing the review of the Gear VR (which was highly requested, and is delayed because I found out I didn’t try everything and I wasn’t happy about the article), or my TOP 5 Apps to use (which is also mostly ready), I thought it’d be better to start off 2018 looking at what I learned from 2017, and my plans (the ones I can actually think of right now) for 2018.
So during 2017, I mostly learned so much about myself, I grew up (and still always am), and about what I really want to do. This year is my last year in college, I’ll be getting my Master’s degree in software engineering. But then what? I’ve been really thinking about it.
You see, I knew that I loved technology when I was in primary school, and I knew that’s what I wanted to do. I grew up doing what I love most, but then college happened. There’s nothing I regret more than choosing to study what I love, in college, that should’ve never happened. By the early 2017, I realized, I no longer love it, if anything they made it worse for me, it wasn’t what I thought and I’d rather if I studied it by myself instead of ruining it. So now, I no longer want to work in a technology related field, not anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I still deep down love it and it is my life, but the passion is gone. To me, it was my special thing, my hobby, my passion, my everything. So after college, I need to search for that feeling again, but not while working in this field.
All these thoughts made my anxiety get much worse and it got the best of me. What the hell am I going to do now? I didn’t have plan B!
So now, I’m trying to focus on this year of college first, plan for the doctorate, if I can. And then have plan B and C.
This was the hardest thing to learn in 2017, for me. It is hard to face facts.
With this being said, this year is going to be different, I’m going to do WHAT I LOVE, no pressure whatsoever. This means blog, even if it is after midnight. Feel free to not sleep at all if it means me finishing a book or a manga or a webtoon. Enjoy the little things never mind how small they are. Exercise more, take care of myself first, for one. Try to better myself and be the best version of me and learn more about different topics. Cut all the negativity away, toxic people and so called friendships included. If they don’t love you, support you for who you are, there’s no point, no body is perfect, but we complete in a way each other. Be who I am for real, for instance I adore both black and pastels colors, best of both worlds. No need to fit in one mold, I need to create my own.
This is not an easy thing to do. To admit it to yourself is not easy. But when it is the right thing to do, it is doable.
Hence this blog post, it is like a reminder and a promise, to myself first and to you, that things are changing around here. In the sense that you’ll be seeing more blog posts, in different topics that interest me (everything technology related, TV Shows, movies, music, books, my thoughts like this blog post,…etc), which is still going to be most likely geeky nerdy stuff, since that’s who I am after all. I might start posting my writing too, that’s a thought I’m still pondering and I might test it on Tumblr first.
Please bare with me in this journey, while I grow up even more and mature! This is going to be an interesting ride ^_^ .
Happy 2018 and may the road ahead of us be filled with amazing experiences and full of growth and happy moments!
See you sooner than you think 😉 ,
Randa
Brunette Geek Girl 